So I am probably in trouble. Again. I am in a lot of trouble lately, partly due to reckless behavior and partly due to nonsensical, bureaucratic laws; however, this time (which must be measured independently of all other times, simply because it is) I am not to blame.
Having objectively weighed all of the options that face me I am split. There is a good chance it will all blow over or amount to something very small, and a small chance that I will be raped over the issue.
It is just another saga in the epic of my failed career in the military.
Yesterday, I believed, was the day we could begin consuming alcohol again as the exercise which caused its prohibition had ended. However, though two different people of high rank let me know that the exercise was over, but the one major stickler for the rules was present in my barracks last night. There was probably roughly a 1 in 75 chance that he would be there… And roughly five feet from my door he smelt me and now the retarded die has been cast.
Outcomes range from scott free, never having it mentioned again to loss of rank and other punishment.
I could worry about it further but there is nothing left to do but tell the truth when the question arises, and if the truth does not speak for itself what can I do?
I can only suffer with dignity.
I have already learned a lesson from this — whence the die is cast, there is nothing left to do but stick to the way of a righteous man and let it play out.
There is no point in anxiety — there is only a point in anticipating the play the way a batter anticipates the pitch.
But regardless, I know what is going to happen given all of the options and now I am waiting it out and I am going to smile widely about it whatever the outcome because there is nothing that bothers your enemies more than your smile and your happiness.
I have a history with the person getting me in trouble… And he is a pathetic creature whom I pity. I consider this just another opportunity to stab him with my happiness — I will hold out the garlic that is my happiness to his Vampyric presence.
The retarded die has been cast and now I sit and anticipate it with dignity that I would not have had in this situation a year ago.